Changes

So I've been thinking a lot about that final border and I've pretty much come to the conclusion that I will take it off and find something else to finish the quilt with... just have to decide what to use... maybe a tonal purple?  I'll have to audition some fabrics from my stash.

In the meantime, I've been working on this block from my Dear Daughter quilt:

Not 100% thrilled with it... I had to do some re-design work on the block, and I'm not happy about the changes I made.... Don't get me wrong, I like it better than the original, just not exactly what I was aiming for (the G is a little too small and angled wrong).  But it's DONE, and that's better than not.

As for me, well I've got lots to do, and I'm looking at changes to my life in a few ways... Wonderful group of women that I've been a part of for about 10 years has undergone many changes of late.  I got a nasty letter (anonymous) from one of them last week, and in my defense, only one of them spoke up.  My dear friend talked to others, and not one of them made any attempt to reach out to me, even privately.  Kinda lets me know where I really stand with them.  I don't feel so welcome as I did among them, and thinking maybe it's time to part ways.  This would make me very sad, especially since I don't have a large network of friends, but I have to think about how to lessen this angst and pain over all this.  Maybe I just need a time out?  I don't know.  Last week I stayed home rather than attend our weekly meeting, and I am dreading this Wednesday, when we meet again.  But one of them owes me almost $40.00 and I want to at least collect that.  So I'll go, try to be sociable and friendly, though I'm not feeling the love, going or coming. 

Okay, time to have a good cry and crawl back to the sewing machine for some unconditional love and some quality sewing time.

A new beginning

While I still don't feel like doing much of anything, I started a new mystery quilt earlier this week, while I still had some mojo.  It's the Pat Sloan Mystery Quilt-Along, 'Out of This World'.  Here is block one:

Can't wait to see what comes next... should be interesting.... I'm glad the blocks aren't pictorial space blocks (like piecing or paper-piecing a space shuttle picture, for example)... the theme seems to be more inspiration rather than pictorial, which is nice.  Had fun making this one... gave me a little respite from the pain. 

Finishes and Endings

I managed to put a couple of extra borders on the mystery quilt after I put all the blocks together.  I didn't NEED it to be bigger, but I hate square quilts... I'm not happy with the borders, but I'm not sure I'm unhappy enough to rip them out and start over.  Still thinking about it.

This is what it looked like with the first four borders on (as designed by Bonnie Hunter), sorry about the picture being partially obscured by my wall of fabric... my design wall really isn't big enough for it.  

Then I added a 5th border, piano keys in all the colors in the quilt (except the white).  I was happy enough with this border, even if it's a big 'heavy':

Then I added border #6 - just a fabric that has all the colors in it... I don't really like this one.  It looks a little 'muddy'... though it might make a good back for the quilt:

That sixth border is the one I'm most strongly considering removing... I have to make a decision before I take it to the quilter, but I'm just not in the mood to make a choice right now.  Too depressed.

Basically, I've had all my confidence and stability rocked this week and I don't want to make any decisions while I'm in this state... I feel like my friends (well not ALL of them, but a lot of them, have rejected me, and I'm not sure there's any turning back.  My head is reeling and my heart aches... not a time for making choices.